Saturday, August 10, 2013

I couldn't feel and it couldn't heal..

I searched cities..I searched towns..
Every forest..every mountain..up and down..
But I couldn't feel and it couldn't heal..

I flew..I traveled..I strayed..
Never missed a chance..to ever get played..
But I couldn't feel and it couldn't heal..

I spent a lot, to buy it..everywhere..
I showed hatred..I showed care..
But I couldn't feel and it couldn't heal..

I smoked every cigarette..drank every wine..
Pushed myself to cross every line..
But I couldn't feel and it couldn't heal..

I opened my arms..I closed my eyes..
Told truths..told lies..
But I couldn't feel and it couldn't heal..

I looked for it..by myself..
Even I asked for it..from the god itself..
But I couldn't feel and it couldn't heal..


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Friday, August 2, 2013

Shit happens for good?

I was missing my writing from last several months. Sometimes, what you don’t expect, it happens and you really don’t know how to move out of that. Well, I am sitting in my balcony looking outside and exploring my head about all the things about which I really wanted to puke out my words over a paper. I am sitting here since morning but no idea knocked into my head. I am still in an enigma and trying to come out of the illusion, which I thought to be real. I really want to write about that but I cannot or to be precise “I should not”.

I think I know, about what I should write this time.

I am really confused about two very famous phrases these days. First, “What happens, happens for good” and other “Shit happens”. Two thoughts highly contrast in meaning. But one thing in common, both are used to cheat ourselves. Whenever something wrong screw us up, we sit, close our eyes and use either of the damn phrases. People I don’t comprehend, how happening of shit is good? I discussed with several beings. Everyone has own perception. Conclusion being, you can’t control your destiny. And there, there’s the origin of new cruel word “Destiny”. Wow!

Destiny, “is she bitch?” or “she’s darling?” Something uncontrolled happening in your life, tag it with the name of destiny. If there’s happiness, she is darling otherwise she’s bitch. I must say, we, human beings, have very interesting techniques to sink out our frustration. Well, I don’t believe in her. Moreover, I consider her an innocent girl, who has not committed anything wrong but always get punished with hard words, if someone screws someone.

But from where these things are taking birth in the grey part of our heads. Almost, everyone believes that if we’ll do something wrong, an invisible power will punish us, who resides in heaven but controls all the entries to hell. Yeah, The God! Another means, being used by human beings to cover their mistakes, to make an excuse if they have not got spine to do what they cannot. “Shayd Bhagwan ko yahi manzoor tha..!”, “I don’t know what to do now, let the god decide”, “I’ll pray that the god will lead us to right path”, “I don’t know whether it is right or wrong, let the god decide himself” I bet everyone has heard of these phrases and I am sure, we all have used some of these at some situations, when we  totally lost our minds.

Guys, breaking news, The God has already blessed you with a 350 gm gift right in your head. Please start using that. It’s not gonna used up. Don’t blame him every time for everything and shout for his help, even if you’re struck in some traffic. He’s not gonna make another road for your car. He has millions of other useful things to deal with.


I know, I have used harsh words this time and even the words I should use in writing. No apologies for that. Life is what you make it. No one controls it. There’s no destiny, if you don’t know which way to go. There’s no God, if you don’t believe in yourself.



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