lost..

finally, I lost the battle with my fate..
neither it's early nor it's late..

I fell..I stood..I fell..I stood..
tried to walk with the efforts I could..

but I forgot, it was never easy for me..
either it's small or it's big, I have to pay the fee..

I was stupid, I was stubborn..
millions of lessons I had to learn..

This time, I fell, I fell so hard..
lost all the ways, where to start..

I looked into the sky, not smiling this time..
I know HE's laughing at me, as if I did the crime..

This time it's not ok, it's not alright..
I'm totally broken, I can't fight..

I've lost all trust in HIM..
whenever I needed light, it was always dim..

I swear, I won't ask, I won't pray anymore..
will see the ways, you'll punish me more..